lifestyle of the epic fail. lolwhut

i just want it all to end. i never thought i'd hurt this much. it's my fault anyway. ginusto ko naman ito noon. ngayon na nandyan na ang sakit sakit sakit.

i need to be a better person. i really need to grow. but how? oh god please help me.

now the wheel has turned and it hurts. well i deserve this anyway.

he's right. i still need to be a better person. not this trainwreck ive become

why did it have to take this far to realize that the friends who i thought were real are not the friends i should be running to afterall

long previous post is loooonngggg. anyway ill go back to work now.

it's 1:06 in the afternoon and both my roommates are still sleeping. when we're all up, sometimes we're on the phone at the same time speaking in our mother tongue. quite fascinating to listen to. i should try to record it some time.

now, they're both sleeping so all i could hear are the ticks on my laptop keys and the vehicles on the road.

awesome peaceful afternoon y'all!

i asked the lady at the counter for a cup of iced ovaltine. however, she gave me a glass of iced coffee instead. when i returned the wrong purchase, the lady, obviously not wanting to admit to her mistake, pointed at me and glared "you say kopi!" i resisted because i was pretty damn sure i had said 'iced ovaltine" in a clear, crisp, per-syllable manner. so as not to prolong the argument, she took the wrong purchase from me and agreed to fix me a fresh glass of iced ovaltine (with a bit of unpleasant shrug on the side of course) :)

this doesnt really sound like anything of an issue to qualify for a space in my lj. however for someone as meek and introverted as i am who just takes in everything and simply lets things be for the sake avoiding argument, i am quite proud of myself for this small undertaking. i have to start protecting myself from this manipulative world i'm at now, otherwise my chances of survival will be futile. small as this start of protecting myself may be is nevertheless still a start. :)

next step, ill work on the complaint letters about a shop. 'for what?' if you may ask--- well, it's a different story that deserves its own space. next time. :)

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on another note, i bought a bible today from a book shop. i opted for the cheapest one only to find out after paying with credit card that it costs 13SGD more than what i knew its tag says. i noted the cashier girl about it and she said that what i had seen was the USD price. wokey. so after i had completed the purchase, i looked for the sgd tag at the bible packaging. surprise surprise! the sticker was placed upside down at the center of the packaging's texts, so small the font for you to even notice it, whereas the USD tag sticker had the screaming price at the empty space at the bottom. i am always used to USD prices being published on the books themselves, so my eyes led me to the price on the most noticeable sticker, which i thought was the SGD price itself.

i told my friend about it and even showed him the book. i asked him what he thought the price was. he pointed at the USD sticker. he barely noticed the SGD tag also as it was buried in the piles of texts. he reacted "another scam!"

shame that even with price tags, people still find ways to pulling clever tricks on people and for this case, pulling a scam even on a price of a bible.

i wanted to return the bible but i realized it's still the cheapest one they have. so i guess ill have to charge this to experience yet again.

oh well... lesson learned.

(ill update this post with pic soon)

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im not a fan of buying clothes here in sg as i am certain that i could get them loads cheaper in the philippines and at better quality at that. when i decided to roam at bugis one day last semester, i was actually surprised that the salespeople quoted me 25-50 SGD (860-1,700 PHP) for something i could normally get for 300-1000 PHP at mall stores in my country. fyi, Bugis is like a flea market here in SG equivalent to the likes of Greenhills and 168 in the Philippines.

the other day, my classmate knowing that i have a bit of a knack for clothes told me i could get stuff cheap at bugis. i already knew she was speaking based from singaporean standards so i told her i still find bugis clothes expensive. to her shock, she responded "how can you still find 5SGD-10SGD for a price of a long dress or jacket expensive?". whoa. 5SGD-10SGD IS cheap even when compared to philippine prices. although ive seen stores here that sell with such prices before, it's either because the store is on clearance sale and is closing soon or the clothes are still not worth it nor are they at par to my taste.

she told me i maybe quoted such high prices because i look like a foreigner. well, heck I AM A FOREIGNER XD hihi

from that conversation, she volunteered to tour me around bugis to go look for the stores that sell good stuff at really low prices. she's gonna show me how to shop in this ever aggresive capitalist world of sg. i almost hugged her for being such a sweet and accomodating girl. :)

we'll go window shopping at bugis with the rest of our friends friday next week. i am hyped. :)

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another surprise for the people who know me well that might chance upon my lj, i'm going to church tomorrow. :)

i changed my layout to a default one because the old one i have doesnt seem to work anymore...

but lo and behold, this new one i think, is a bit worse.

hooray to my epic design student skills!

will change it later on.

epic fail talaga ako

i havent written here in a loooonngg time. maybe because ive been so hooked with plurk that i dont feel the need anymore to blurt out the long (gibberish) rants i usually do here.

im also thinking of moving to blogspot or wordpress because my friends here have been giving those two domains the thumbs up. plus id like to be able to put photos in my entries without having to link them to photobucket. it'd save me alot of trouble.

on the other hand...

maybe i should just stick to plurk since it pretty much does the job. although im limited to typing brief sentences per plurk, sharing photos, videos and links' and commenting to other people's plurks' a breeze. it could almost beat ym, seriously.

and i have way too many online accounts already, it's insane! :P

hahaha talk about nonsensical post. i gave the problem. the problem's the solution. pak

after a hefty devotion to school work, school work and even more school work and to staying in front of my laptop til the sun waves hello, i have successfully managed to make myself look like a corpse.

i guess i wont have to spend for any halloween costume afterall.

lots of characters to choose from:

- a skeleton
- a zombie
- mortisha adams
- fester
- lurch
- L of death note
- beetle juice
- or some other creepy whatnot that'd go with my au naturel corpse look

it's the in thing this season. im not serious by the way.

anyway, suggestions anyone?

on a random note, i wanna learn how to belly and strip dance. im serious by the way.

after a hefty devotion to school work, school work and even more school work and to staying in front of my laptop til the sun waves hello, i have successfully managed to make myself look like a corpse.

i guess i wont have to spend for any halloween costume afterall.

lots of characters to choose from:

- a skeleton
- a zombie
- mortisha adams
- fester
- lurch
- L of death note
- beetle juice
- or some other creepy whatnot that'd go with my au naturel corpse look

it's the in thing this season. and im not serious by the way.

anyway, suggestions anyone?

on a random note, i wanna learn how to belly and strip dance. and im serious by the way.

i have witnessed a series of different emotions from a single person in just a span of less than 2 hours. my burm*n roommate was under hysteria the other night and without my other roomie to help deal with the situation, i was left with but this single absolute emotion= FEAR. :-s

with no more than a minute of interval from each other came her emotions in the ff sequence:

(1) anger (ok so first, she was shouting like crazy. she was talking with her boyfriend from another continent at the other line. here, i thought they were fighting...)

(2) sorrow (...shortly after the shouting, she was sobbing like a child and her face fired up like a berry. i had to give her tissue 'coz her snorts were travelling all over and my bed was just a foot away from her. here, i thought they broke up...)

(3) joy (after all that chaos and drama came a sudden burst of laughter... uh... i realized maybe they hadn't broken up...)

(4) sorrow... again (but yet again, she was sobbing like crazy... ok ive ran out of thoughts now.)

(5) joy... again??? (then again, she was laughing... dud)




eventually i found out why the sudden burst of emotions--- not because they were fighting and not because they had broken up... it's because her bf wanted her to release her emotions, and not to keep it within. turns out she was stressed and idk maybe her bf wanted her release all that kept feelings so as not to stress herself further. sweet but it's not worth my fright on that supposedly peaceful night. up until now, i still dont quite get what happened during that night really. :-p

actually, im not really sure about the part where she's keeping her feelings within because she's been crying almost every other night since i came here and my other roomie attests to it too. it's been happening long before i came to this hostel.

although tears still occasionally run down my face, ive gotten over that crying phase already... and ive only been here in singapore for like two months. she's been staying here two years already. anyway, it's interesting to hear her say that the things ive cried about are nonsense when all she said she's been crying about are exhaustion and school stress. i seriously found it hilarious. hehehe im so evil. mmm ok maybe i shouldnt be laughing at her. maybe she is stressed over heavy stuff i dont know of. maybe she misses her bf and the thought that they live in different continents stresses her. fine. i just hope i witness less of those scary schizo nights from her.

and there's another weirdness going on in my class. omg it's crazyyyy....
- first, ind*an girl blasts at me and my 2 other sporean classmates for reasons far too little to make big
- sporean classmate texts me and starts apologizing to me for having me involved in such
- i posted my explanation defending our side (me and the 2 sporean) i just couldnt let shallow ind*an girl blast at us when all we've ever done is help her the best way we could when in fact, she's the abusive,overly-dependent one who's never given any help out whatsoever...
- here comes the weird part: this creepy sporean guy (not involved in the issue) started giving weird and unrelated comments to us (which i still dont get since im not very good with singlish).
- sporean classmate posts a comment thanking me for posting and for defending our side
- creepy sporean guy makes an odd and totally unrelated comment-- "Anything you say babe"
- sporean classmate creeped out and weirded out over creepy sporean guy's comment deletes her comment leaving the comment to seem like it's responding to me!... "Anything you say BABE"(???) one word: EEW!
*update* ind*an girl deleted her comments. sporean girl deleted her comments. might as well delete mine so that i dont seem like im talking to noone. DELETED leaving creepy sporean guy to seem like he's talking to himself. *evil laugh*

lolerz. so far, my stay here in singapore's in between epic fail and epic win. it's been an adventure. cant say im loving it. cant say im not liking it either. :D

oh well. i guess i just have to deal and get used to these kinds of weirdness one way or another.

after all, i am studying in an arts institution.

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been dying to go to the museums. i might try museum hopping sometime. there's a toy museum here which ive been dying to go to. they have these vintage toys and other interesting whatnots ive yet to see.

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i seriously feel like getting a job but school's been really really hectic and i dont know if i can manage my time well.

job and school = been there.done that = epic fail.

but there are alot of postings and i do have friends and classmates who're juggling both work and school. both my roomies are working and both are actually pushing me to join them. my chinese roomie works as a waitress in a pub and she's earning 12SGD per hour!!! so that's like 72SGD for only 6 hours!!! 72SGD = PHP 2,448... and it's part-time!!! which means i can only appear for work when i want to. (seriously, that's how part-time goes here. it's the employer who calls to see if the employee's free :-p ) thing is 12SGD is late shift, early shift calls for 6SGD. not bad either.

i am tempted but i havent really gotten the 'go' signal from my family and my friends are not really encouraging me to it. they said i should just focus on my studies.

maybe they're right. ive yet to figure out this system so i should probably study hard first and figure if i can juggle work with it. maybe next year ill give it a go. cost of living in sg can be very expensive that's why im really interested in earning extra.
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omg she is crying again. *dies*

some of the people you'll encounter in your everyday life are just plain weird... and stupid. :P

oh well.

Engaged Idealist (EI)


Engaged Idealists are extroverted and helpful. Others find them to be very congenial and inspiring - especially as they are always willing to see the best in the other person. Their humour, their energy and their optimism attract other people. Engaged Idealists are very good at communicating and are good at convincing and firing on others. That is why it is a matter of course that they often take over the leading role in groups. This personality type often produces very charismatic persons.

Engaged Idealists have an unusually strong ability to empathise. They are tolerant and generous towards others; they sometimes tend to idealise their friends. They always try to suit everybody and want their relationships to be harmonious and satisfactory. To achieve this, they are prepared to invest a great deal and to put their requirements last. As Engaged Idealists are very considerate, there is the danger of them sacrificing and overexerting themselves for others. In their job, they therefore have to be very careful not to develop a burnout syndrome.

Engaged Idealists are reliable, well organised and love structuring complicated situations. They have difficulty accepting criticism; they quickly feel hurt and misunderstood. Their perfectionism also influences their love life - they look for the perfect relationship for life. Once they have made their decision, they are faithful, well-balanced and loving partners. However, should they get involved with the wrong person, it can happen that they allow themselves to be exploited for a long time before they end the relationship.




Adjectives which describe your type
extroverted, theoretical, emotional, planning, idealistic, committed, likable, enthusiastic, responsible, helpful, loyal, diplomatic, friendly, inspiring, caring, solicitous, optimistic, effusive, adaptable, communicative, articulate, convincing, energetic, optimistic, open, vulnerable


These subjects could interest you
art, psychology, politics, honorary work, environmental protection, nature, travel

i always thought i was introverted.

( ooh lala )

food rant #1: i want to try that foie gras burger chame just texted me about, only, it's not available here but in singapore... and even if ill be there on august, i don't think i could afford such pricey pricey delicasy with my measly allowance and so-so salary.

food rant #2: im so frustrated that dunkin's cotton candy-flavored donut's no longer available this season. ive been craving for it for several weeks now. the cola flavor's still up. how come the cotton candy flavor isnt?

food rant #3: i sooo want to have a copy of that book jed's told me about. it's got lots of reviews on the best (not necessarily high class)restaurants from all across the country. the restaurant and food reviews ive been reading are scams. *sigh* if only the book weren't that expensive, id buy one for myself. and oh, have i mentioned that my bday's coming up? *cough* *cough*

OH NO... *must stop thinking about food*

ive so much to do and yet i cant pull myself from this lethargic rut. grabe sobrang nakakatamad.

productivity has gone down, vanity is sacrificed, life's hanging by a thread, sanity is about to say byebye... and binging is still on the roll--in greater than enourmous levels.
'adios old jeans. hello sweat pants'

omg! i am going to lose it.

i better do some major catching up or ill die.

*still wishing i could simply take my brains out and just put it back when it's needed*

me now ey basketcase...shrink wanted.

is this emotional binging or am i really just hungry?

gawd im so bored today that i cant find any other enjoyable activity apart from eating...

mustve increased 2 inches around the waist. *groans*

( rant rant rant )

( digging myself out of a craphole...even more random blurbs )

( more random blurbs )

( shamelessly plugging kukoman and magic chocnat )

( unstucking myself from the same old boring routine )

( an old dream recently surfaced and i somehow wish to be able to pull it off in my upcoming years as an able mortal earth being )